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The hardest part is never knowing when the next episode will happen
He and I have been together for many years. At first, drinking was just a way to liven up gatherings with friends, but it gradually became a nightly habit of having a few drinks. I pleaded, I argued, and I even smashed bottles. Every time he promised, "I'll stop drinking starting tomorrow," but the next day it was the same as before. What broke me wasn't the drinking itself, but the anxiety of never knowing when the next outburst would happen—I even started dreading coming home from work, because I never knew what I'd see when I opened the door.
It wasn't until later that I realized this cycle of repeated promises and broken trust was draining not only his willpower, but also the trust between us. We were trapped in a loop: he drank, I blamed him, he apologized, and then he drank again. This cycle went on for a long time, until we realized that relying solely on the goal of "quitting drinking" was never going to work.
It turns out there are so many "reasons" behind drinking
With the help of professionals, we began using a method called "functional analysis" to break down his drinking behavior. This method is simple: it involves dissecting the antecedents and consequences of each drinking episode—external triggers (such as friends inviting him for drinks, fatigue after work), internal triggers (such as anxiety, boredom), the problem behavior (drinking), short-term positive effects (relaxation, temporarily forgetting worries), and long-term negative effects (deteriorating health, family conflict).
When I wrote all of this down, I realized for the first time that his drinking wasn't because he was "worthless" or "didn't want to change," but because drinking gave him a way to relieve stress in the short term. Although this method came at a high cost, without any alternative options, it was nearly impossible for him to quit out of thin air. This realization stopped me from just being angry and made me start thinking: if he doesn't drink, what can he do to replace that sense of relaxation?
Sobriety sampling: starting with a small goal of 7 days
In traditional thinking, quitting drinking means "stopping completely in one go." But the professionals told us that this requirement is nearly impossible for many people, because it's like asking someone to suddenly give up the biggest source of pleasure in their life without offering any replacement. They recommended a method called "sobriety sampling"—not requiring abstinence forever, but first setting a short-term, achievable small goal, such as 7 days without drinking.
We tried it the first time. After 7 days, he did it. Although the process was difficult, that feeling of "I did it" was more effective than any criticism. After that, we gradually extended the time to 14 days, then a month. If there were periods of high work stress, we would also proactively shorten the timeframe. This flexible approach turned quitting drinking from an all-or-nothing gamble into a process that could be adjusted and negotiated.
During this process, I also learned how to support him. For example, when he completed a sobriety sampling, I would say: "I know this wasn't easy, and you did it—I'm really happy for you." Instead of "It's only been a few days, what's there to be proud of." This kind of positive feedback helped him persist more than criticism ever could.
Besides drinking, what else can we do together
One discovery that really surprised me was that after he stopped drinking, he had no idea what to do with his free time. Over the years, his socializing, entertainment, and even his way of relaxing all revolved around alcohol. Once alcohol was removed, it was as if he had lost the framework of his life, feeling empty and bored.
So we started looking for alternative activities together. At first it was simple—going for walks, cooking, watching a movie. Later, we tried things he had been interested in before but never had time for, like growing flowers and listening to music. These activities weren't complicated in themselves, but what mattered was that they let him experience that a sober life could also have joy, not just be something to "endure."
This process also changed our relationship. Previously, our conversations almost entirely revolved around "Did you drink or not?" and "When are you going to drink?"—full of tension and defensiveness. Now, we have more shared topics and activities, and our communication has gradually shifted from blame to sharing.
Intimate relationships also need "training"
The professionals also had us complete a "happiness index scale," rating our satisfaction across 10 areas including housework, parenting, socializing, communication, and financial management. After filling it out, we were surprised to find that both of our dissatisfaction actually centered on the same issue: communication style. He felt he was always being criticized, while I felt he never proactively communicated.
Then we began learning how to express needs in a supportive way. For example, I used to say, "Can you stop watching TV all the time?" Now I would say, "I hope we can go out to see a movie together every Friday night." This change sounds small, but the effect was significant. Because the former sounds like blame, while the latter is a specific, actionable invitation. He finds it easier to accept and is more willing to cooperate.
Communication skills training also included how to name one's feelings, how to make understanding statements, and how to accept partial responsibility. These sound very theoretical, but when actually practiced, they genuinely reduced our arguments and increased our understanding.
Seemingly unrelated choices are often the most dangerous
In terms of relapse prevention, one key concept we learned was "seemingly irrelevant choices." For example, he once said he was just passing by a friend's house to chat, but ended up drinking several bottles of beer. On the surface, visiting a friend to chat has no direct connection to drinking, but that choice was precisely the trigger for relapse.
We began listing together those behaviors that seemed unrelated but could actually lead to drinking: such as taking the route home that passes by the bar after work, making plans to eat with a friend who always urges him to drink, or being alone when feeling down. Identifying these "dangerous choices" in advance allows us to make adjustments before they happen. For example, taking a different route home after work, or meeting a friend at a café instead of a restaurant.
This process made me realize that quitting drinking is not a one-person battle. As a family member, I not only need to understand his difficulties, but also need to participate in relapse prevention work. We are a team, not opponents.
Now, we are still moving forward step by step. There are no miracles, no one-and-done solutions, but at least we are no longer trapped in the old cycle. If you are going through something similar, perhaps you could try stepping outside the single goal of "quitting drinking" and see what other parts of life can be rebuilt together. Change is possible, but it takes time and patience.
Quitting drinking is not a one-person battle, but a process in which the whole family relearns how to get along.