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In the Late-Night Drinking Session, He Spoke to a Black Screen
On the table lay a half-empty bottle of cheap liquor and a plate of long-cold peanuts. His phone screen flickered repeatedly in the dim light. Regardless of gender or time, from late night until dawn, he dialed number after number—answered, unanswered, hung up on, cursed at... He listened without speaking, just holding the phone to his ear, hearing the busy tone or an impatient "Stop calling."
Even when berated mercilessly over the phone, he would only chuckle, hang up, take a swig from the bottle, and dial the next number. His daughter’s whereabouts were unclear, his wife treated him as "optional," and calls from her were either for money or to say she "considered him dead," without a single word of concern. Relatives back home had long since disappeared. In this vast world, he didn’t have a single person to talk to.
So he held the phone, speaking to the dark screen, muttering to himself—about work at the construction site, about the cold weather, about today’s meal being too salty... Talking to the air, and to the nonexistent person on the other end of the screen.
Carrying Steel by Day, Carrying Loneliness by Night
By day, he was a skilled laborer at the construction site, moving steel bars and hauling cement, stronger than anyone, never complaining. He’d even help others, and people said that aside from his reliance on alcohol, he was quite loyal. But at night, after drinking, all the bitterness in his heart would surge up, unstoppable.
At 4:30 the next morning, before dawn, you’d see him back at the construction site. Still working, because even after leaving the packaging factory, the harder labor of the site paid better. He’d washed his face, changed into clean work clothes, and last night’s disheveled despair seemed never to have happened. He still looked handsome, but his body had already been ravaged by alcohol.
It turned out all his vulnerability and brokenness only dared to emerge in the late-night drinking sessions, whispered to strangers on the other end of the phone.
As a Partner, I Learned Not to Press
At first, I always wanted to understand why he drank so much. I checked his call logs, asked who he’d called and what they’d said. He’d either stay silent or wave me off impatiently. Later, I realized those late-night calls weren’t about reaching anyone—they were his only way to feel like there was "someone to turn to."
I tried urging him to drink less, hiding the alcohol, even snatching his phone mid-call. The result? He drank more, or simply didn’t come home. I began to dread nightfall, the sound of him opening the door, the sight of him drunkenly talking to the air.
The hardest part was never knowing when it would happen next. By day, he was fine, seemingly normal, and I’d wonder if I was overreacting. But as soon as night came and the bottle opened, that familiar stranger returned.
The Boundary of Companionship: I Can’t Fix Him, But I Can Care for Myself
For a long time, I felt I should do something. When he drank too much, I’d bring him water, wipe his face, clean up the mess. The next morning, I’d pretend nothing had happened. But living like this, I was nearing my breaking point.
Eventually, I understood: his loneliness and dependence weren’t things I could "cure." What I could do was maintain my own boundaries—not cleaning up after him, not answering those late-night calls, not taking responsibility for his emotions. When he needed help, I could accompany him to explore professional support, like family support resources; but I couldn’t walk that path for him.
Now, when he drinks late at night, I sometimes sit nearby in silence. As he talks to the phone, I do my own things. Occasionally, he’ll suddenly say, "Today was tough," and I’ll reply, "Mm." These moments are rare, but at least I’m not carrying it alone anymore.
The Pain He Hides Is Shared by Many
Do you know someone like this—holding it together by day, crumbling by night? He’s not alone. Many who rely on alcohol are pillars of their families by day, skilled workers, or "loyal friends," but at night, alcohol becomes the only thing that lets them lower their guard.
Their fragility often surfaces only in late-night drinking, whispered to nonexistent listeners on the phone. This isn’t an excuse, but a real predicament. As partners, our role isn’t to rescue, but to witness—while guarding our own boundaries.
If you’re in a similar situation, you might find resonance and direction in other families’ stories.
A partner’s role isn’t to save, but to see the hidden pain—while holding their own boundaries.