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The hardest part is not knowing when the next episode will come
Many families have been through this: a loved one loses control after drinking, then regrets it once sober. But what truly drives people to despair is the dread of never knowing when the next storm will hit. Our family's story began with just this kind of uncertainty.
At first, drinking was merely a way to liven up social occasions. Later, it became a daily task that had to be completed. Eventually, stopping drinking for even a few hours would trigger trembling hands, a racing heart, and cold sweats. At the time, we thought it was just "a heavy drinking habit." Then one day, after he stopped drinking, he had hallucinations, saying he saw things crawling on the wall, and he became extremely fearful and agitated. It was in that moment that I realized this was not a simple bad habit; it was an illness.
Withdrawal is not something you can just "tough out"
Many people ask: alcohol isn't an illicit drug, so why is it so hard to quit? The answer is: it genuinely feels terrible. Once alcohol dependence has developed, suddenly stopping or reducing intake triggers a series of withdrawal symptoms, which medically are called alcohol withdrawal syndrome. These symptoms include: agitation, restlessness, anxiety, insomnia, tremors or shaking of the limbs, nausea, vomiting, tachycardia, elevated blood pressure, profuse sweating, and more.
The most severe of these is delirium tremens, which typically appears within 48 to 96 hours after stopping drinking. Patients may experience clouding of consciousness, hallucinations, disorientation, and even danger signs that require immediate medical help. If not treated promptly, the mortality rate can reach a certain percentage. We have seen with our own eyes the way he shook all over and became confused after stopping drinking; that fear is still unforgettable. Withdrawal cannot be endured through willpower alone; it requires professional medical intervention.
Long-term drinking doesn't just harm the liver; it changes a person
Long-term, heavy, uncontrolled drinking not only causes alcohol dependence; it also has a serious impact on the central nervous system, leading to the manifestations of a range of mental disorders. These changes are often silent, but their consequences are extremely heavy.
For example, in alcohol-induced psychotic disorder, the patient experiences hallucinations, delusions, and affective disturbances without obvious disturbance of consciousness. Common forms include alcohol-induced hallucinosis and delusional jealousy. In our family's experience, he began to suspect everyone around him, becoming paranoid and irritable, even making groundless accusations against family members. Another more serious consequence is Wernicke encephalopathy, characterized by confusion, abnormal eye movements, and ataxia, associated with vitamin B1 deficiency. If not managed properly, it can develop into Korsakoff syndrome, which manifests as severe amnesia and confabulation—the patient forgets what just happened yet fabricates seemingly plausible memories to fill the gaps.
In addition, alcohol-induced personality change is also very common. People who drink long-term become selfish, withdrawn, and indifferent; they lose affection for family and care only about alcohol day and night. Their emotions are extremely unstable, they are hypervigilant, and they lose control. The man in our family was once a gentle person, but later became irritable and quick to anger, even leading to family conflict. He had poor concentration, declining memory, and reduced work capacity. To get alcohol, he did things that were hard to believe; he was like a different person before and after drinking.
The family is not a bystander, but a co-advocate
In the face of these changes, family members are often the most helpless. We tried persuasion, arguments, and tears, but none of it worked. Eventually we came to understand that alcohol dependence is a disease, not something that can be resolved by reasoning. What family members need to do is not to blame, but to understand and seek professional help.
In professional institutions, doctors assess the patient's degree of dependence and develop an individualized alcohol-cessation plan. The withdrawal process requires gradual reduction of intake, while managing withdrawal reactions and any psychiatric symptoms. This process is difficult, but it is also the only viable path. We learned to recognize danger signs, such as hallucinations, disturbances of consciousness, and severe mood swings—all of which require immediate medical attention.
Looking back now, what I am most grateful for is that we did not give up, and we did not try to tough it out alone. Alcohol dependence affects both the individual and the family in both directions: the patient endures physical and psychological suffering, while the family bears emotional and life pressures. But as long as we are willing to face it and seek help, there is a chance to walk out of this storm.
If you or your family member are going through a similar situation, you can learn more from the information on family support, or get an initial understanding through the self-assessment tool. Remember, this is not a one-person battle.
Alcohol dependence is not a matter of willpower, but a disease that requires professional intervention, and the understanding and support of family members are equally crucial.